Monday, 21 December 2015

Being a Christmas Birthday Babe

I've just read a blog post about having a birthday at Christmas. I'd like to share it and add to it because it really resonates with me:

http://www.thetortoiseshellglasses.com/2015/12/christmas-birthday/

My birthday is December 29th. 



Having that one day where you're allowed to be self indulgent and have a whole day that's all about you is tough at this time of year. No one's interested in your day when there is much more to celebrate and everyone is busy thinking about everything else at Christmas that they'll probably forget anyway.

My mewsings today are for everyone out there who's birthdays are at this time of year - I feel your pain...


Kacey's comments about the effect having your birthday at Christmas has on you as a child is especially poignant.

But it's not all bad, there are pro's and con's to being a Christmas birthday babe (granted, there are more con's, but I always like to look on the bright side.)




Con's

  • For kids, I reiterate Kacey's comments: not being made of fuss of at school like all of your class mates is a cruel and merciless experience.
  • If you know someone who's birthday is at Christmas NEVER wrap their present in Christmas paper - this is a crime for which no punishment is suitable
  •  Every year my husband complains he has to buy my birthday card in September as there are never any decent birthday cards in the shops in December, you're lucky to even find them in most places
  • NEVER give a Christmas birthday babe a 'joint present' - you look like a total cheapskate and an a'hole (unless they ask for something big as a joint present, then it's OK.) 
  • No one will come to your party. My birthday is 2 days before New Year's Eve so every year the excuse is that everyone is saving themselves for that. I can't even remember the last time I had a party for my birthday - really, what's the point when no one will come?
  • One year I decided to have a 'half birthday' in the summer and throw a party. No one celebrated it because 'it was silly', and then when my actual birthday came round no one came because I celebrated it in the summer! Lose Lose. 
  • You have to think of more present ideas and think carefully about what to put on your list as you only get one chance a year. 
  • If you don't get want you wanted for Christmas, there's no second chances, you have to wait an entire year to ask again
 
Pro's

  • When I was a kid, I used to get a lump sum from our grandparents at the end of the year which meant I could buy big stuff for myself without having to think about saving up. Rubbing my brother and sister's face in it when I bought something bigger and better for myself in the January sales was like no other joy
  • I've never had to go to work or school on my birthday. In fact, I've never had to have any responsibilities on my birthday
  • It's much easier to have a low key or intimate birthday - no one will notice anyway so there's no pressure to put on a big bash. 
  • Because it's party season, even when your Christmas birthday is mid-week bars and restaurants are busy and buzzing. 
  • When I was working for someone else, I never had to take cakes into work on my birthday, and honestly, my colleagues have always been grateful when the staff kitchen is full of everyone's unwanted Christmas chocolates and sweets.
  • It's OK to just keep on partying. People are in a festive mood anyway so having a birthday just after Christmas means I start celebrating on Christmas Eve and just keep going until New Year's Eve. Result.

Enjoy the festive season everyone - Party on!





Friday, 18 December 2015

All I want for Christmas...

My mewsings are all about Christmas right now...





My business is taking the back seat while Christmas invades every inch of desk space in my office.


Spot the proof copy of 'Gabriel's Game, Part 2: The Black Knight' languishing in a pile of tissue paper.

It's already filled with scribbles and editing notes. My first job after Christmas is to update it, get feedback from my other beta readers and then publish it. I'm hoping to publish it by the end of January.



Too late for Christmas unfortunately, but just in time for everyone who had a Kindle for Christmas


...to load it up with new books!



Although I'm not making much money this month with my Amy Morse, Authorpreneur business, I am at least saving money by making lots of presents this year (sort of). 

I've been melting chocolate and baking biscuits like a woman possessed and creating labels for all the homemade goodies going in Christmas hampers this year...

 

I've also been thinking about what my next 365 project should be for 2016. 

In 2015 it was 'Authorpreneur Almanac: 365 Adventures in Writing and Entrepreneurship'

I launched my authorpreneur business and have worked at it every day, updating my blog weekly.

I will publish a compendium of 52 blogs on writing and entrepreneurship in the new year, so watch out for that...




Monday, 30 November 2015

Deleted Scenes

The final book is the Sheridan and Blake Adventure series, Gabriel's Game: Part 2: The Black Knight, is out with beta readers at the moment. I'd like to publish it in time for Christmas but realistically I think It's more likely to be in the new year. 

 
This weeks mewsing is a deleted scene from the latest book...  



I had a marathon writing session in August to write 30,000 words. I wrote a blog of tips to write  a first draft in 30 days here.

Tip 3 'It's okay to take chunks out' was a particularly relevant while I wrote Gabriel's Game because in the original plan for the book, Tom Sheridan was going to call in a favour from a former army mate based at RAF Akrotiri in Cyprus. 

The whole sequence of events was an insight into Tom's frame of mind and revealed some of the secrets from his past. However, as I wrote the scenes it all seemed like an unnecessarily complicated way to move the story from one location to another and was a convoluted and contrived way to get Tom and Sasha from Cyprus to Ukraine. It was also unnecessary and created some plot holes that I couldn't rectify sensibly.

It was a tough call as the whole sequence involved a major overhaul of the entire denouement of the Sheridan and Blake series

In all, I removed about 15,000 words from the manuscript that I then had to replace and rewrite with a completely different angle on the resolution of the mystery of the Democritus Manuscript.

No writing is ever wasted (Tweet this).

I kept the chapters I'd chopped out and re-purposed a few chunks of it in other parts of the story, the rest is languishing in a scrapbook folder to be cannibalised for future writing projects.

In this scene, Tom and Sasha have arrived at RAF Akrotiri and Tom has gone to meet with a former army mate - Lieutenant Colonel Trefor 'Taffy' Howell-Jones - in a bar close to the base (warning, contains profanity):

    


 Deleted scene from: 

Gabriel's Game, Part 2: The Black Knight

 
RAF Akrotiri, Cyprus November 2015

“I don’t think I ever thanked you TJ. Shocker, I know,” said Taffy, his musical Welsh accent just as prominent as the day they’d met when they were two young lads with a point to prove. Taffy used to tell stories of growing up on a rough estate in Splott, Cardiff and how he’d learned to fight - he was a real scrapper; vicious in hand to hand combat.
   He ushered Tom towards the bar.
   “Thank me? For what?”

   Tom leaned an elbow on the bar, his suit jacket draped over his arm and looked along the line of shiny chrome taps. It’d been a long time since he’d had a beer and his mouth watered at the prospect. A fresh cold lager would be a welcome relief from the dry Cypriot heat, even at this time of year, the days could be hot, although the evenings were cooler.

   “Oh, you know, just the small matter of your saving my bloody life and those other lads.”

   “Never leave a man behind – you’d have done the same for me.”

   “Would I?” a sly smile snuck along his ruddy brown face, the jagged scar down his left cheek from that day, more obvious when he smiled, the wrinkling of it at odds with the rest of the grooves on his careworn face.

   Taffy ran his fingers through his light brown hair, “Let me at least buy you a beer, mate?”

   Tom thanked him, chose a beer and they waited to be served.

   “I’ll bring it over!” said the barman.

   Taffy thanked the young man, who barely looked old enough to be serving behind a bar, and gestured to a rickety table and mismatched chairs in the window.

    Tom took a seat and neatly hung his jacket around the back of it. Taffy got comfortable opposite. Taffy hadn't changed much. Out of uniform; he was wearing short beige trousers and a salmon pink polo shirt. A deep set tan from years of living and working in one of the warmest parts of the Mediterranean emphasised the few wrinkles he did have. He still had a thick head of brown hair, with only a light dusting of white, worn cropped close at the sides and longer on top, a floppy section of unruly hair fell onto his forehead and he swept it back as he settled in the chair.

   Outside, the sky was clear with a pink sheen to it as twilight loomed. The window overlooked an asphalt road with ribbons of sandy dust dancing along its surface, like seams of gold where they picked up the low sunlight. Their flow periodically interrupted by military vehicles rumbling along.

   Taffy jabbed a thick thumb with a gnawed down nail in the direction of the barman, "That’s Hammer’s kid.” He took a sip from his sweating beer.

   “Hammer? You mean Tony Hamlin is here too?” 
   Tom, took a long drink, enjoying the sensation of chilled beer sliding down the parched corridor of his throat. He sat back and let out a refreshed sigh.

   Hammer had been a wiry, spotty, brummy who could run fast, wasn’t the brightest but he was loyal and would do anything for his mates. It’d be good to see how he’d changed over the years. And a kid? That was unexpected.

   As he sipped his drink he thought back to those days; realising it was almost 20 years ago, he felt old.

   “So anyone else here I’d know?”

   “Perhaps. When I was promoted I told the bosses I wanted to assemble the best team I could. Akrotiri has grown in strategic importance in recent years as a Forward Operating Base for Allied Forces. We’re at the intersection of three theatres of war; North Africa, the Middle East and Ukraine. I put in transfer requests for several of the old crew. Had you still been around, I’d have got a you a gig here too, mate.”

   “Working for you? Jesus,” he shook his head, chuckling, “If I’d stuck around you’d be working for me!”

   “Funny man! You’re still a wanker then?” Taffy held his glass up and they clinked their drinks together, laughing softly.

   “The biggest!”

   “And still far too self-effacing. You were a good soldier, you’d have been a great and well respected officer too.”

   “Thanks. I guess we’ll never know.”

A gloomy look crossed Taffy’s face, “Harkett screwed you on that prisoner exchange. All the lads would have backed you up, TJ, you did the right thing.”

   “Did I? What about Egypt?”

   “Hey, you can’t blame yourself for the actions of some sick jihadist. If it hadn’t been him it would have been some other kid brainwashed by extremists. There’s no evidence that he had any such plans when we had him. Besides, I wouldn’t be here if you hadn’t done what you did. It just galls me that The Libyan; that bastard who captured me and those five other lads - tortured some of them - is still at large.”

   Taffy snarled at the thought of The Libyan and pushed some damp strands of hair up his forehead.

   Tom was yet to find the courage to tell Sasha what The Libyan had done to him. Now he had a unique perspective on what those British soldiers had been through back in ‘96. He wasn’t about to admit his weakness to Taffy and Taffy hadn’t disclosed that he’d been tortured himself; but he never did find out how he got the wound on his face. When Tom had made that deal and got his team released, Taffy had hobbled out barely conscious and he’d put a field dressing on the bloody gash across his cheek. At the time, Taffy fobbed him off, telling him he got the wound in a fight, but something in the look in Taffy’s eyes now, told him differently.

   It had been an impossible choice – but he honoured an oath to his team; never leave a man behind - and definitely not six of them. A choice that set him on this course.

   Did he regret it? He’d asked himself that question many times; but if he had his time again, he’d have done the same thing; so the answer had to be no; even though he’d destroyed his own career and future as a consequence.

   “What’s done is done,” he shrugged, “And Milton Harkett has owned my arse ever since.”

   The feeling of worthlessness pervading his every thought crept to the surface.

   Taffy clenched his hand so tightly around his glass it looked like he’d shatter it, as if he were imagining Milton’s neck.
   “Harkett is a manipulative bastard. Until he’d done that to you, we’d all respected the guy.”

   He’d never realised quite how passionately Taffy had felt about what had happened. He’d underestimated the middle aged man sat in front of him, who’d been his right hand man all those years back.

   “If he hadn’t covered up what I did, I’d have been Court Marshalled and banged up for it.”

   “No, mate. Milton had no right to make that choice for you. Sure, it may have gone to Court Marshall, but we’d all have backed you up. If Milton had come clean from the start, I reckon you’d have got away with a slap on the wrist.”

   “I was stupid and naïve back then. He was my CO, I was scared, you know?’” he grinned mirthlessly, shook his head, disgusted with himself and knocked back some beer.

   “You give that miserable bastard too much credit. Truth be told, he saw an opportunity to exploit you at your weakest so you’d help him with his new pet project. That was how he operated. Makes you wonder what dirt he had on the officers above him to get promoted so fast through the ranks?”

   Taffy’s eyes widened at him as he sipped his beer.

   Tom thought about it for a moment, his brow descending.

   “I have a chance to get out. But we need your help.”

   “Gabriel Fletcher filled me in on some of the details, and told me you’d fill in the blanks. So how does this work?”

   “What do you mean?”

   “I’ve met Fletcher a few times. He seems sound enough. He’s well known around here; a rich local businessman. Apparently he went to school with the previous base commander. He was seeing Tilda for a while too.”

   “Tilda?”

   “She manages the admin team here in Episkopi. So what about Milton and his Agency? Are you working for Gabriel now?”

   “In a manner of speaking.”

   “You always have been an evasive bastard, TJ.”

   He chuckled and drained the rest of his beer, “Yeah, so I’ve been told.”

   Taffy gave him a suspicious look, his voice deepening, as deep as his Welsh lilt would allow, “Are you asking me to help The Agency, by helping you?”

   “No. This isn’t an Agency op. It’s my op, with Fletcher’s backing. If I do this, if I can find that manuscript I can make a deal with Milton.”

   Taffy leaned across the table, frustration making him tremble, “TJ, are you talking about going up against Milton? What, do you have some sort of a death wish?”

   Beads of spittle collected along his lips as he said it.

   Tom shook his head and offered a reassuring smile. Taffy sat up straight.

   The young barman came over and picked up their empties.

  “Hey, Will,” Taffy said to the tall lean lad; Tom could see the family resemblance to Hammer, “I want you to meet someone.”

   “Sir?”

   Taffy laughed and wrinkled his nose at Tom.

   “I love this kid. He’s not even enlisted and as far as I know, has no intention of,” he cast a look at the boy.

   “No, sir. I’ve got a place at university to start teacher training next year.”

   “Good lad,” he gripped the boys arm affectionately. “But, he’s so used to everyone calling me ‘sir’, he does it himself.” He let go of the boy and gestured across the table.
   “So Will, this is Thomas John Sheridan, he used to serve with your father and I back in Germany. Known to his mates as TJ. This man saved my life, and your dad’s. You’d never have been born if this guy hadn’t have done what he did in Croatia.”

   Taffy winked at Tom and Will put the tray of glasses down and smiled at him. The attention made him uncomfortable. He had no desire to be a hero to this boy; he was no role model. Will held a hand out. He hesitated, looked at the lads long bony fingers, he even carried himself like his father, then shook, looking into the lads warm coppery eyes.

   “It’s a pleasure to meet you, sir.”

   “Please. I’m not a sir. No one calls me Thomas and TJ’s a name from my past; Tom is fine.”

   “Does dad know you’re here?” A brightness lifted his tone when he spoke of his father. Will clearly had a lot of love and respect for Hammer.

   Tom looked at Taffy for an answer; who shrugged, “I doubt it. We’ll catch up with him later.”

   He liked the idea of connecting with old friends. Since he was forced to leave the Army, he’d led a lonely existence – until he met Sasha.

   Sasha; he found himself wondering what she was up to right now.

   “Can I get you another drink, sirs?”

Taffy laughed, “There he goes again.” He punched Will on the bicep and the boy winced, "such a good lad.”

   He looked to Tom, who glanced at his watch and said, “We’ve still got a lot to talk about. Are you staying for another?”

   “Why the bloody hell not. Yes please. Will, add it to my tab.” Taffy grinned, a gold tooth towards the back of his mouth glinting.

   Tom reached into his trouser pocket for his wallet, “I can get these.”

   Taffy held a hand up, his face stern, “No TJ, you’re the guest here. And a very welcome one. Allow me.”

   He thanked him and they both thanked Will as he left their table with their empty glasses.

As soon as he was out of earshot, Taffy resumed his questions.

   “So come on, you wanker. Start talking. What’s all this about and was that gorgeous blonde you arrived with Dr Blake?”

   “Behave,” he wagged a finger at Taffy, “She’s with me.”

   “Beautiful and clever. How did you wangle that one? Well, she can examine me any time she likes.”

   He threw Taffy a warning look and he chuckled in response.

   “Okay,” he held his hands up, “I get it!”

   “So what about you, Taff? Not married then?”

   “Me? Sure. Married a fantastic Croatian girl, Marta. Our 15th anniversary his year. Love her to pieces,” he prodded Tom on the arm, “I was only ribbing you about you’re girl.”

   Will delivered two more cold glasses of beer to their table, they paused to thank him and resumed the conversation.

   “Kids?” asked Tom.

   “Bloody Nora, no! We breed Beagles though. The pups keep us busy. Stop avoiding the subject.”

   “Would I?” said Tom, affecting an innocent tone.

   They both laughed a little and sipped at their beers simultaneously.

   Taffy looked up, swiped hair from his forehead and examined his stubby fingers nails for moment, as if he was preparing to say something important, “You know, TJ. I could use you. Have you heard the latest about IS militants in North Africa?”

   “What’s that?”

  "They’re deliberately destroying world heritage sites. Claiming they promote idolatry, although there are reports of them selling looted artefacts to fund their operations. Artefacts from cultural sites in Syria and Iraq have started turning up on bloody eBay! While you’re faffing about looking for some old book IS are wiping history from the map. I could use a man of your talents.”

    “At my age? Besides, Assyrian and Babylonian cultures aren’t my specialty.”

   “I wasn’t suggesting putting you on the front line. I meant in an advisory capacity. I could easily get you heading up an intel task force. There have already been calls from NATO countries for military intervention, the claim being that ‘cultural cleansing’ is an act of war. If they get their way, I need to be ahead of the curve on what’s being destroyed and what needs to be saved. Even if we don’t get UN approval to take up arms to protect those sites, scientists from Oxford and Harvard universities want to catalogue buildings and artefacts of historical significance, preserving knowledge before it’s obliterated. As most of these sites are UNESCO World Heritage sites, there’s an argument that the UN has a duty of care to protect and assist such a project, and that’s going to need some good intel  from our end so we can make best use of our troops, should they need to be deployed. I need help to set something like that up. And I’m sure we could negotiate a compensation package good enough to keep you in those nice suits!”

   Taffy paused, winked and nodded his beer at him, “I mean it TJ.”

   “I’ll think about it. But I tell you one thing I could help you with?” Tom sipped a section of the white froth from his beer and locked eyes with Taffy over his glass.

   Reading the sincerity in his eyes, Taffy set his drink aside and folded his hands on the table top.

   “Have you got some intel on something?”

   “The Libyan.”

   “Don’t piss about. We’ve been looking for that bastard for years, he was on the American’s card deck of most wanted terrorists. And you’ve got a credible location on him now? Who’s your source?”

   “I am.”

   “What the hell does that mean?” Taffy leaned closer, lowering his voice. He cast furtive glances around the room to make sure no one could be listening. The bar was almost empty and no one was within earshot but he was behaving on instinct, “What do you have?”


Find the Sheridan and Blake Adventure Series books here:

The Bronze Box
Solomon's Secrets
Gabriel's Game, part 1: The White Queen